Welcome to Utah.

There were 26 girls in my high school graduating class in 2009.

I did a little experiment and went through my yearbook... 13 of these girls are now either married, engaged, or have a baby. (Interestingly, all the ones with babies are not married.)

Married: 5
Currently engaged: 5
Babies: 4

FOURTEEN?! As in... OVER HALF? Ho-ly fuck... There isn't even a need for high school reunions anymore, with Facebook constantly updating us on what everyone is doing. I was able to find every girl from my class except for one. Just shoot me now.

There were 37 guys in my class. I know, it was a very uneven ratio. Less of them have facebooks, but here are their stats. Haha I feel creepy.

Served/is serving a mission: 5
Married or engaged: 6
Babies: 2
Realized they were gay: 1

The two guys with babies... one of them got the girl pregnant in high school and THEN got married. The other is my ex-boyfriend whom got a girl pregnant and I believe he has not yet married her.

It's funny to me how traditional Utah is generally, but all of my classmates with children are not the least bit traditional...

Harry Potter: looking back.

I'm a bit drunk, bare with me. (I get so productive when I'm drunk!)

I just watched Deathly Hallows Part 2 again. You know, just for fun. (I'm also considering using it for my make-up assignment in which we have to write a report/do a powerpoint/etc on a TV show or film and analyze the make-up.) But that's aside the point. The whole time I watch this film... I'm just overcome with the way I felt when I saw it the first time. When the sun comes up again in the film, the sun was rising in real life too. My showing began at 3:00 in the morning so you can imagine. (I also had to work at 8 AM the next morning. Pure hell.) The music that plays right after the Great Hall scene, and every student is scrambling hysterically through the corridors - that's the moment I said to myself, "Oh god I'm not ready for this." The moment after Ron and Hermione kiss, that's when the girl in front of me in the theatre said, "Oh my god I can't believe that just happened." That moment of Snape's collected memories, that's the moment I knew the world would finally understand true devoted love. The very last moment when that final original John Williams theme played, was the moment I knew life would never be the same.

One of the very best mornings of my life, no matter how painful.

And it's not over. I still haven't been to the Wizarding World, or the studio tour. So much more Harry to come.




(Harry Potter is officially the largest tag in my tag cloud. Fml.)

Bit disappointed.

I may never watch Glee again after this season. That trick they pulled is just not cool and very cliche. Not sitting well with me. Nope... nope.

I love everything about this woman.

Her voice. Her music. Her performances. Her style. Her personality.

She deserves everything she's ever received. I was crying in the library this morning watching her Grammy acceptance speech. What an amazing year for an amazing woman. I feel so lucky to have heard her live.

When I grow up I want to be Adele.

sometimes i can't believe it

cardigan: ModCloth | top, belt: Forever 21 | skirt: Express

Feeling good these days. Basically life has been blissful since I learned Bon Iver will be playing a show in Vegas in April. BLISS.

blue becomes red and red becomes blue

top: Bohme | skirt: Express
(The top is also available on ModCloth.)

I need to do more outfit posts! I need to stay constantly inspired. Especially now that I'm a... *drumrolllllll* art minor! Yeah I'm excited. I'm still extremely interested in women's studies, but I'm just not the kind of person that can commit to that kind of research-driven academia. It's also very political and anthropological which aren't really my strong points. I wasn't going to really do anything with it as part of my degree anyway. I'm better off just taking it up as a hobby and reading all the feminist literature at my own pace. Now time to locate my art supplies. Time to reclaim the phrase, "Yes, I'm aware I have paint on my face."

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I think something has clicked in me music-wise. Suddenly I see the good in so much more. And I see the amazing in what I already saw the good in. And I'm willing to give more things a chance.


We can be a whole group of friends
A whole group of frogs
Jumping into the streets
Jumping into the planets
Climbing buildings
Swimming in the lakes, and in the bathtubs
We would be hundreds, thousands, millions
The biggest group of friends the world has ever seen
Jumping and laughing forever
It would be great, right?


Seeing this band in April!

this is our decision, to live fast and die young

Currently taking the tiniest of strides towards complete bliss... or as close as I can get to such a thing.


I'm feeling rough, I'm feeling raw, I'm in the prime of my life.

GRRR.

You know what my problem is? I don't have that one thing that always calms me down. Some people relax by reading, taking a bath, going for a walk, watching a movie, etc. But all of those things just make my mind wander even more. I wish I had a way to be productive. I'm so anxious, and this medicine I'm on is making my heart race even more. Not helping whatsoever :{